I've never liked the word 'fat' but yet the word 'skinny' would roll off my tongue with ease, not knowing that the word 'skinny' had the same impact on people as the word 'fat' did on me.
I had a toxic energy that 'manipulated' me into shrinking myself, telling me that no matter what, I wasn't enough. I wanted to shrink myself into places and be unnoticeable instead of being the larger person that still somehow overlooked taller friends even with my height. I've tried to be more peaceful and calm than strong and powerful, but not the boundaries between having respect for myself and others. I want to be my authentic self without answering 'why' for my reasoning.
I was exhausted.
Every day I woke up wanting to be someone other than the person that I was.
One thing that I'm passionate about that has always held a space in my memory, is yoga. I used to tell myself yoga was for one size only, but it's not. Yoga is ever changing with every body and helps to create your own unique healing space. My happiness isn't wrapped in the idea of being 'smaller' but to somehow feel lighter even when a scale tells me that I haven't lost any weight. I am learning to create an energy that I can bloom from and love a little bit more each day.
This isn't a weight loss journey, it's a spiritual journey.
I had a toxic energy that 'manipulated' me into shrinking myself, telling me that no matter what, I wasn't enough. I wanted to shrink myself into places and be unnoticeable instead of being the larger person that still somehow overlooked taller friends even with my height. I've tried to be more peaceful and calm than strong and powerful, but not the boundaries between having respect for myself and others. I want to be my authentic self without answering 'why' for my reasoning.
I was exhausted.
Every day I woke up wanting to be someone other than the person that I was.
One thing that I'm passionate about that has always held a space in my memory, is yoga. I used to tell myself yoga was for one size only, but it's not. Yoga is ever changing with every body and helps to create your own unique healing space. My happiness isn't wrapped in the idea of being 'smaller' but to somehow feel lighter even when a scale tells me that I haven't lost any weight. I am learning to create an energy that I can bloom from and love a little bit more each day.
This isn't a weight loss journey, it's a spiritual journey.
Hope isn't manifesting the people, places, and things that you want, need or desire.