You might find yourself staring into squares on Instagram, watching videos on TikTok, and reading posts on Facebook. Maybe you see a baby announcement, wine bottles, a romantic dinner for two or even a galantine's gathering. There's sweet and goofy filters to pick from for your photos, gift giving, and everything in between. I've been there and I know it hurts. You don't have to admit that to anyone -- if you're not ready. But please know that feeling any type of way doesn't make you a bad person and it doesn't mean you're heartless. I know you're happy for your friends. The ones who have been praying for this time, for so long. However, I know a part of you slowly cries inside with each announcement, video, and post, because maybe you long for an announcement of your own but you're waiting on God's time for your announcement ... and it seems like it will never come. I know you’re getting frustrated and growing impatient from the unknown and all of the what-ifs. But what would life be if it wasn't full of uncertainty and the ability to keep our faith because we never know what God's plans for us are. It’s okay to feel jealous and bitter. To be angry, frustrated and sad. To question anything and everything. How you feel is valid. You can be happy for your friends and strangers while questioning your own emotions when it comes to your wants and how you feel. You feel this way because that too is what you want... closeness romance bundle of joy friendship. I want you to know that you're not alone. If you're feeling lonely or left out there is someone who feels the exact same way that you do. You are enough for everything you want, desire, and even more than that. You are amazing. The tears will dry eventually and the sun will rise on your day and you will know that you're going to be okay. Your worth and love for someone or something isn't determined by how many dates you have this week or this month. Who's calling your phone, Who's asking if you're up. If you can/can't conceive or if you're undecided. Which friends do and don't reach out to you. With my whole heart and all of my faith, I believe that what you're praying for and what you're seeking, will find you. But until then, you are loved. Don't let anyone tell you how you feel isn't valid. Everyone has different emotions. Try talking to your friends. Let them hold space for you during this time. They love you and they have probably been where you are right now. I pray that you find strength and acceptance through this time. That you give yourself grace and believe that something you have already asked for is on its way to you. I pray that you come to understand that everything you're going through now is setting you up for everything you have ever wanted.
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Crystal
2/14/2024 11:15:55 am
This has absolutely touched my heart on many levels. Today amongst other days is a tough one when you have different uncertainties in life. Your words have helped me to remember to lean into my family and friends and know that I am worthy too. Thank you for sharing these powerful words of wisdom and emotions with us and as always I love you girl ♥️
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