I can't say that I have been hurt by a church, I feel like that would be me lying.
However, I have been hurt by multiple Christians. This left me feeling disappointed because I would never project how I feel, how I was raised, my beliefs, or whatever else you want to call it, on someone else. This is why I have dropped the label of being a 'Christian.' It's not about your relationship with God, but my relationship with him. We as humans fail all the time, but our God does not and I want anyone, right now, to know that your relationship with God isn't confined to church walls. Your relationship is where you are, he just needs you to show up. Some people try to tell you, you have to do this or that. Be this way or that way, but that's not the case. For a lot of us, we have different reasons why we move on from something or someone that once was a huge part of us. Blame it on sadness, hurt, disappointment, frustration, trauma, or family. Regardless, my story has tears just like yours. I have been lost and have been cut so deep in certain areas that I didn't think I would ever find my way back. Yes, I strayed, just like you might have, but I promise, for me, there is peace in knowing and BELIEVING that God loved me the entire time that I had strayed from him and continues to love me unconditionally. There is no better feeling than to know that you can happily and proudly say that you listened to your own inner-self and not someone else. I know it seems like I'm rambling... but I want you to know that even though I'm perfectly imperfect, I will try my best to never disrespect you and to always do my part of making you feel less alone and more welcome in this world and around me. I want to do my part to show God’s love and light to those around me. So, for the rest of this year, I challenge you to... be kinder. be more mindful. build onto the relationship you have. create new relationships. show gratitude. be respectful. guide and don't judge. learn and relearn. forgive but don't forget. To anyone who is chasing faith, hope, or any other belief, there will be moments where we want to wallow in self- criticism and times where we feel like we have no choice but to listen to the enemy. But don't let that keep you in your self-wallowing. Don’t let your past win. Don't let your mistakes define you. Whatever your relationship with whoever your God is, you can do this. You can spread love and light, even if it means breaking generational curses.
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